Day +2196: Gratitude

6 years ago, I was just beginning the 10 days of the worst pain in my life that I still struggle to talk about. I eventually had to get “fed” through my IV because I had bleeding ulcers from my mouth to my stomach. Couldn’t swallow my own saliva, and had to suction it out manually. And yet, I praise God for those days – for that whole experience – because He made me realize what was truly important in life. I do still struggle with survivor’s guilt, missing my dear friends that did not make it past treatment. They are a part of me forever, always in my heart and on my mind. I don’t know why I’m here and they are not, but I won’t let the precious gift of time go to waste. Lord, help me to be a light to others on this rainy, dreary day. Help me to be grateful and gracious, kind and compassionate. Teach me to love others as You love them. And may I never waste a second of the blessing of life You’ve given me.

Music on my mind today:

Sad Cafe, The Eagles